One Who I Can Count On

Your best friends are there for you through anything, they lift you higher when you feel like falling, they hold your hand through rough times, they whisper into your ear that "you can do it" when you feel like turning back. True  friends are the ones you can trust, and who can trust you. 

You never really find out who your true friends are until something crazy happens and you really need them... I have recently encountered an issue in which you really find out who is there for you though everything. There have been some people who have amazed me in how easy they turned their back, and others that have really stuck it out with me, answering calls at one am just because I needed to talk. Yet it seems like the ones who turn their backs are the ones your heart aches for the most when they are not around. Why is that?

Ralph Waldo Emerson once said that "A friend is a person with whom I may be sincere. Before him I may think aloud." That really made me think, can I be completely sincere to every one of my friends and know that they will still love me and not judge? And if not, are they worth keeping? Are the friends I have ones that trust me unconditionally and are they people I can trust no matter what?

"As we grow up we don't lose friends. We just learn who our real ones are."

Two friends in particular comes to mind as a write this, one who I can count on... And one, who I find I no longer can. Finding out I can no longer confide and trust the second friend has hurt so much more than ever expected. More than loosing any boyfriend or material object I have ever had. This person was someone I shared everything with and felt so at peace when they were around, but maybe as the quote states, they were never really a real friend, and I just found that out.